My Love/Hate Relationship with my iPhone

So I realized that I love having this phone. Seriously, obsessed. Even with all the app's and games. Yes I'm a nerd, but totally fine with it. However, I am an even bigger nerd for realizing I miss my computer time. Don't get me wrong, I sit at a computer M-F from 8a-4:30p but I don't get to just browse around and play on fun websites (i.e. blogspot). I haven't blogged in a while. And while there is not much new going on I feel like I should be on here more. I had a night to myself tonight, which doesn't happen all that much anymore. So my mind has been wandering and all over the place. Some thoughts:
- I am thankful for all that I have been blessed with in my life, but am greedy for more. I really don't think there is much wrong with this...
- I wish I knew the path that my life is going to take, but some surprises are really fun, too!
- I cried tonight watching Breakfast at Tiffany's when Holly Golightly threw her cat out of the cab. I love my cat as if she were a human. She has been with me through A LOT in the past 9 (*tear*) years.
- I am on a no bullshit diet. Even though it may mean I have less people in my life, I dont want to deal with crap. So I try to cut it out as much as possible.
- I need to take more pictures. I take TONS of pictures, but I have the worst memory and never want to forget the amazing times I had in my life. Someday I am going to seriously print out the thousands (yes, thousands) of pictures I have taken just in my post college years that I have had a digital camera.
- I think it's tragic that some of my favorite people (some, not all) live so far away from me. Seriously brings tears to my eyes because I miss them so much. I wish I could gather all my favorite people in one place at the same time. Could you even image how fun of a time that would be? Which leads me to...
- I am a terrible friend to Jessie. OK, not really, but I havent been out to Cali to visit once. Not even once! I suck. So, I am planning a trip out there. Hopefully in February. To celebrate my last year in my 20's. I told her that I fully intend to do some celebrity "following," AKA stalking and I want to go to some awesome bars. Along with, obviously, seeing the beach. Low 70's in February? Don't mind if I do!
- I want a baby! Just kidding...remember whose blog you're reading folks! BUT, I can't wait for Liz to have Baby T. I love, love, love my friends babies and I just know she will be such a stellar mom. Really, she already is. :)
- And finally, I need to just let myself be happy. Constantly I am looking for something to be wrong and am paranoid...alot. Such a crummy feeling. Damn past still screwing with my head. And not just past relationships (although I would like to blame all the shittiness in the world on someone who doesnt even deserve to have his name mentioned), but in friends, works, etc. I need to learn to let go. Just forget crappy past situations and not let them affect the rest of my life.

OK...done for the night. xoxo