I'm a MOUSE. DUH!

"Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it." - Cady Heron
I admit it...I love Halloween! I could do a costume party at least once a month if my friends would go along with it. I think dressing up is so, so, so super fun! And I unintentionally dress a little scandalous. Is it my fault that the models who display the costumes are approximately 5'2"? So I had to get a skirt to go underneath my "dress" to add some length. And I am not over-reacting saying it was too short. Literally my ass was showing. Uncomfortable!! So, petticoat to the rescue. See you in the CWE??

I'm Gonna Do It...

Going to the Chapel...

Obviously, I am not the one getting married, but cannot wait for this wedding. So many good friends all together in one place! It's going to be a bit chilly, but still a bright, sunshiny day! Congrats Mandy and Larry!

Perfect Tailgating/Football Weather!

I'll be in COMO this weekend supporting my Tigers!

My Love/Hate Relationship with my iPhone

So I realized that I love having this phone. Seriously, obsessed. Even with all the app's and games. Yes I'm a nerd, but totally fine with it. However, I am an even bigger nerd for realizing I miss my computer time. Don't get me wrong, I sit at a computer M-F from 8a-4:30p but I don't get to just browse around and play on fun websites (i.e. blogspot). I haven't blogged in a while. And while there is not much new going on I feel like I should be on here more. I had a night to myself tonight, which doesn't happen all that much anymore. So my mind has been wandering and all over the place. Some thoughts:
- I am thankful for all that I have been blessed with in my life, but am greedy for more. I really don't think there is much wrong with this...
- I wish I knew the path that my life is going to take, but some surprises are really fun, too!
- I cried tonight watching Breakfast at Tiffany's when Holly Golightly threw her cat out of the cab. I love my cat as if she were a human. She has been with me through A LOT in the past 9 (*tear*) years.
- I am on a no bullshit diet. Even though it may mean I have less people in my life, I dont want to deal with crap. So I try to cut it out as much as possible.
- I need to take more pictures. I take TONS of pictures, but I have the worst memory and never want to forget the amazing times I had in my life. Someday I am going to seriously print out the thousands (yes, thousands) of pictures I have taken just in my post college years that I have had a digital camera.
- I think it's tragic that some of my favorite people (some, not all) live so far away from me. Seriously brings tears to my eyes because I miss them so much. I wish I could gather all my favorite people in one place at the same time. Could you even image how fun of a time that would be? Which leads me to...
- I am a terrible friend to Jessie. OK, not really, but I havent been out to Cali to visit once. Not even once! I suck. So, I am planning a trip out there. Hopefully in February. To celebrate my last year in my 20's. I told her that I fully intend to do some celebrity "following," AKA stalking and I want to go to some awesome bars. Along with, obviously, seeing the beach. Low 70's in February? Don't mind if I do!
- I want a baby! Just kidding...remember whose blog you're reading folks! BUT, I can't wait for Liz to have Baby T. I love, love, love my friends babies and I just know she will be such a stellar mom. Really, she already is. :)
- And finally, I need to just let myself be happy. Constantly I am looking for something to be wrong and am paranoid...alot. Such a crummy feeling. Damn past still screwing with my head. And not just past relationships (although I would like to blame all the shittiness in the world on someone who doesnt even deserve to have his name mentioned), but in friends, works, etc. I need to learn to let go. Just forget crappy past situations and not let them affect the rest of my life.

OK...done for the night. xoxo

Reunion Weekend!

I have a confession...I am a huge nerd and totally excited for my high school reunion this weekend. Not so excited that i have already been out of high school 10 years, but VERY excited to see friends I havent seen in ages. I think it's a real shame that there are people who dont want to go becuase they "already see everyone from high school they want to keep in touch with." Well, duuuuuhhhh! I'm not going to see my friends I keep in good contact with. But there are people who I was friends with in high school whom I have lost touch with and would love to run into again. I already have an awesome little black dress and am going to get myself some new heels. Go Oakville! :)

What Was Inside the Little Blue Box

This is what was inside that lovely little blue box from Nathan for our 1 year. I was giddy with excitement. Like over the top, couldn't believe my eyes, wanted to tear the ribbon off the box happy! He makes my life wonderful. Obviously not just because of this, but because right now we are sitting on the couch watching Sunday's Design Star episode. I love being relaxed with him and knowing that we can sit here, barely talking and being completely at ease. It's a beautiful place.

For our anniversary he took me to eat at the Boathouse and then got tickets to opening night of Footloose at The Muny. He did good. And so did I by realizing what a good thing I found and not letting past heartache impede my judgment about this relationship. Lucky, lucky me. :)

So I am playing golf tomorrow. For the first time. As a company event. Infront of all our top executives. Should be interesting...to say the least. At least my boyfriend bought me a super cute pink golf shirt. If nothing else, I'll look the part. :)

If I Could Go Back In Time...

I would absolutely go back to these days. Minus the men all cheating and sleeping around. How beautiful is January Jones? I would totally dress just like her.

Bad Decisions...

This is approximately how many jello shots I took on Saturday...no wonder I didnt make it until the end of the tournament...

Wiffle Ball Tourny Tomorrow!

Stoked!

Just Happy...

I am just in a good, happy place right now. I have amazing people in my life whom I love and I know love me. I am so thankful for wonderful friends & family. I am making an honest effort to really accept that I cannot change people or circumstances and I am thankful for the true people I have around me.

Post Secret

I love how honest people are on here, even if it is a secret post card. Check out the website - Post Secret

Living Life by Bonnie Mohr

"Life is not a race - but indeed a journey. Be Honest. Work Hard. Be Choosy. Say "thank you" and "great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The Lord givith and the Lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental ~ search for your purpose and do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you inspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself ~ Plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today, enjoy the moment."

Holy Hotness

This is a joke, right? How can someone be made to look so perfect, beautiful, HOT?!?!?! I hate to say it, but my love, Matt Holliday, may have to take a backseat to this hottie. :)

A Random Website...One of My Favorite Things

I love nothing more than a random website...I cannot stop reading this one. Some of these are pretty raw and ballsy, others are sweet - either way, I love this website!
THX!

If I had Manolo's, I'd Be Wearing Them Tonight...

Going to meet Amanda for drinks then Sex & The City 2. I am SO exited! I honestly dont think the story looks that great...but, boy-oh-boy, the clothes and shoes are fabulous!! I am also very excited to hang out with one of my most favorite people!! Cheers!

One of Those Days

:)

I love this. :)

It's About That Time...

It's that time of year! Patio weather and outside day drinking! The weather is finally supposed to take a turn for the better! I love drinking outside!!

It will be so much better than "borderline amazing"

I am thrilled, stoked, ecstatic, if you will, about the fact that I got a ticket to the Chelsea Chelsea Bang Bang Tour. Chelsea Handler is my favorite comedian - fo realz! Love her, love her dog Chunk and love all the comedians she has on her show...for the most part. November 6th at Scottrade - be there or be a loser. :)

I do have to say..I wish Loni Love were going to be there...she is almost just as funny, but Chris Frangola will have to do. :)

Hi!

Ex's are Ex's for a reason

It's been almost a year since I went through one of the hardest moments of my life. That moment turned into months of grieving. Even though at the time, I thought there was no way that was the right thing. There was no way this person I loved more than anything in the world could not want to be with me and make it work. I know now that it was the right thing. We both did things wrong and in the end he wasn't the the person that I thought he was. The person I really wanted him to be. And he definitely did not want the things I did. I tried so hard to be OK with it and I just couldn't be. Many friends thought that I dealt with this way better than my other break ups; however, little did they realize, I just learned to hide it better. I never wanted my friends to think I was "that girl" again. I told myself I would never date anyone younger ever again. Too immature and there is no way we would ever be in the same place at the same time. Never say never I guess. If it weren't for that break up I never would have met my current love. I am insanely fortunate to have someone in my life like him. Lucky me!

Bachelorettes on the Loose!

Going to KC this weekend for Kristen's bachelorette party...absolutely cannot wait to get together with my college friends!

Believe

I Believe...
That just because two people argue, that
Doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue, that
Doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.

I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
That will give you heartache for life..

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best time.

I Believe....
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you
When you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had,
And what you've learned from them....and less to do with how many
Birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.


I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
But we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
Out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same
Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
Hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, if
A friend cries out to you...you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.


The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything.

3 hours and counting...

I have been sitting in this room for 3 hours so far. My butt is numb and I dont want to move for fear that I will loose my outlet to keep my computer plugged in. Not a fan of performing my civil duty right about now...

The Big 2-8...

I am a very lucky girl that I had wonderful friends come out with me for my birthday. I did have a reality check this year that birthdays are becoming less and less crazy, but still, for me, getting together with my friends makes me happiest. I love them and could not ask for better people in my life. This year made me realize who some of my true friends are. I am truly grateful!

I miss my friends.

I feel so distant from my friends lately. No fun.

Girl time!

No one will probably understand how excited I am for this girls weekend. I have needed it and am looking forward to it more than anything! I am boyfriend-less this weekend and even though I may miss him...I need this weekend! xoxo

Fixed?

Do brokenhearts really ever heal? I was told last night that I look SO happy recently. I am still slowly getting better and I am happy, but I wouldnt say "SO happy." I also dont think a serious broken heart will ever be completely better.

Wave if you see me...

...driving my pretty new car!

So pretty!

So I definitely think that Emily Blunt has looked prettier (in regards to hair and make-up) but this dress is fab!!! If I were going to the Golden Globes, I would pick something just like this! *Sigh*...I love getting dressed up and must admit I sometimes miss high school dances for just this reason.I also just adore her with "Jim from The Office."

I think I'll go to Boston...

Looky how pretty! Wish I had time to sight-see. I may try to squeeze that in. I love travelling!

Snow, Snow, Go Away...

Don't get me wrong, I love how pretty the snow looks. But will it ever stop? Sheesh!

Try it...your lips will thank me!

Seriously?

So I still consider myself "single" by the government's sense of the word - which means I am not married. Not sure I would ever take that step. I love being "single." I don't even know if I could ever really live with someone again. Downside to being "single": Yesterday I got 2 Save the Date e mails for baby showers and know a couple more pregnant people (3 at work alone); I am in 3 weddings this year (which means multiple showers, bachelorette parties, etc.) AND we have at least 3, if not 4, weddings to go to. When is this going to end? Dont get me wrong - I love seeing my friends so blissfully happy, but when are these expenses going to stop? I want my new car, darnit!